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Life is like a pot of soup.
"sometimes you have to let yourself to be weak in order to be stronger" ... i'm tired of being the tough one, being the butch, having the masculine personalities, * i'm not sure if this is the right track... or whether there is The Right Track / Wrong Track at all. for the good or for the bad, you need to hang in there JL. * There are numerous acquaintances in one's life. in each stages of life, we are given the joyous opportunity to meet new faces and reunite, if not brush pass, some familiar smiles. tonight, light has shone upon me and a group of rare acquaintances, friends whom i have now with, which i did not expect to build a relationship with one and half year ago. In 2008, i embarked on a one year journey back to a place i did not used to call home, hoping to gain some work experience, thinking that it would make me more secure of my future, and, at the same time, a desperate act of prolonging my term as a student within the colonial campus building. Not until did a dear friend thanked me on the stage of his wedding dinner tonight, which made me realised all the bonds i have silently created... PQ, Sister Ong, Old Man, Amma aka Mummy aka Yoda, LSW aka BOSS, Jamie, Charlotte, Jolyn, Poh Poh, Duckie, Yeen Seen, Shum, Ms Tan, Seok Ling, Cat, and of course, JT aka My Boss. The list of names goes on, and relationships differ in types and depths. yet it almost made me shake in fear when the thought of how fragile or/and what it'll take to maintain these friendships might be. why am i in doubt of myself when i was so strong and fearless (perhaps even clueless and stubborn) one and half year ago. does it have to do with the responsibilities and the different positions i now take and have? Back then, i had nothing to lose. Now, i have a reputation to hold up. Regardless, i am so thankful i got to know ALL OF YOU - in singapore, hong kong, china, mongolia, russia, indonesia, vietnam, japan, thailand, cambodia, sri lanka, india, laos, philippines, papua new guinea, malaysia, australia, canada, and usa. when did your thought and feelings began to mean more than average to me? why am i afraid of upsetting you, to the point that i'll lie to prevent?! could it be... because... i... omg * why does gg triggers that inner subconscious of us? does it have to do with the fame and luxury that a girl-next-door can't get? or is it the lives of others that let's our cats-out-of-the-bag, hungry for more? J.xW_jsx_Wx: weblog - photos - videos - audio - pulse - profile - subscribe!
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Name: jennifer
Birthday: 10/7/1986
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Interests: Art. beauty. Dancing. personal & spiritual growth and well being. history. Theatres. Museums. cats. Finding ways and making footprints. Expressing myself in whatever ways possibile... 
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and the innate sense of caring for others, taking up responsibilities, & setting high self-expectations.
i just want to be loved, be pampered, be spoilt (even)...
all i know is time is my playmate right now, and it is allowing me to take actions and make things happen
without much responsibility and worries.
be brave and jump.
if you're afraid you'll hit the ground with a smashed skull, close your eyes
and think of yourself flying free from gravity...
powerful thoughts do come true.
"what is this force that drives us far from the comfort of the familiar and makes us take up challenges instead, even though we know that the glory of this world is only transitory? I believe this impulse is called the search for the meaning of life." - Paul Coelho
coming on to season three, it made me realise all the different kind of people i have came across and will meet in my life. they are so incredibly sparse and varied, i cannot find a better word to express the confusion within me. can there be no way to balance the two? well, using gg characters... surely it is difficult for one to imagine blair dining at some ghetto restaurant, or dan to be like chuck. but what about rufus & lily? look at how their clashing status and social class finally combines together (though problems may surface now and then, who knows?!).
time, i guess, would be the key.
right now, one can only put in her/his best in everything, weigh every opportunity before grasping them, and enjoy living, breathing & being young. regrets, disappointments and heartbreaks are just dassles of rainbow frost on top of the rich chocolate cake, to make it more desiring and that bite worthwhile.
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